I
wrote this poem the other night for a friend, as a gift, a way of sharing
understanding of how many ways a heart can break.
Like any who’ve lived life,
if lucky actually, they’ve known love;
and then learned what they
knew as love had roots in something other than compassion, giving and true
care.
As
the Native American saying goes: the more the heart breaks, the stronger it
grows.
I
find the creative process feeds the heart in all ways. A child can be the product of many
things, but in an ideal world, a child results because of the love of a man and
a woman. Or today, same-sex partners can find a means to have a child with the
love they share.
Being
childless, I don’t have that blessing. But I do have a loving partner [after
several who were not] and I have writing, yoga and faith. I can lose everything
else I know, but even life cannot take those three.
Learning
to Fly
Feelings
crack my heart
Like
an egg with a chick
That’s
wants to peep:
Instead
I see a yolk
Run
with blood in the center
And though
I am making
Eggs
for my kids
Like
I usually do, all I scramble
And
beat takes my insides
Out
as I toss in the butter
And
begin to cook.
What’s
cooked and roasted
Is a
spirit that wants to thrive
When
instead each breath
Stops
at my throat
And
I chortle and choke
To
find the pain of dying
Like
the baby bird
That
could not grow wings.
My
feathers were plucked
Before
they could ever fly
And
I know if I could bury
What
never found life,
A
part that cries
Might
grow wings
As I
find meaning in pain
Only
time can treat.
I
decide to curl into a ball
And
imagine a woman
Holding
me as if my love
A
womb able
To
birth a joy
Pain
won’t let me know.
And
as I lay in the embrace
I
learn that woman is me,
And
slowly a healing
Plants a seed as I find
My way to a limb
Of a tree and look up
To feel the sun warming me,
Getting ready to spread my wings.
Edith Lazenby: “I love to write. I began writing poetry in elementary school. Sometimes I write poetry daily, other times not. I adore Mary Oliver, her way of embracing the light while acknowledging the darkness. I teach yoga full time and find the practice has grounded me deeper in my body and heart and helped me move closer to what I call spirit. I also now edit for Elephant Journal and write for them as well. I live with my husband, who is my best friend, and 4 kitties. Life holds challenges yet with time I feel better able to live in the moment, moment by moment. All great teachers teach presence. I find each day is a lesson in being. The process of writing holds me and I find the craft teaches me something new each time. You may visit my blog here.
~If you are interested in seeing your poetry appear in this blog, or submitting a poem by a woman that has inspired you, please click here for submission guidelines. I greatly look forward to hearing from you!~
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