At
only six years old, he had struggled all his short life with an undiagnosed
disease, and when the doctors finally put a name to it they also determined
that his time here with family was limited.
I
wrote this poem in the days after his passing. It is about coming to terms with
my own doubts, and about envisioning a place where this small child (and really
all of us) will be free from pain and illness, free to run in ways he never
could do in this life.
Most
who have read this think that it is about finding one's "inner
child," and while I can appreciate their perception, I really had
something different in mind as I wrote it. To me, it is a prayer of sorts to
"never lose hope." For the child that was lost, and the
"child" in all of us.
Photography by Elena Shumilov |
This Cynical Heart
by Ginny Brannan
Imagine
a place with no pain existing,
where
ills that are carried through life disappear.
Like
Thomas, this heart is quite bent on resisting,
yet
lingering questions insist on persisting;
their
answers illusive and ever unclear.
And
still I am finding my mind keeps returning
whenever
the stillness and quiet appears.
I
ponder the purpose of life, disillusioned—
the
darkness that settles, no certain conclusion;
for
ages I’ve tarried, alone and austere.
I wonder
how long I’ve withdrawn in seclusion,
closed
off from emotion, these goals cast unclear?—
Where
cynical thoughts thrive without absolution
despondent,
in need of insightful intrusion…
does
anyone notice behind this veneer?
In
my heart I envision a child that’s running
and
playing with others, no longer constrained—
surrounded
by light of the love that he carries,
his
purpose fulfilled, this small emissary
reminds
us “Be happy, we’ll meet once again.”
Photography by Elena Shumilov |
Ginny Brannan: Residing in New England with husband of nearly 32 years, son and two cats, Ginny Brannan took poetry and creative writing courses in both high school and college. Foregoing degree, she headed directly into the workforce. In 2009, Ginny found herself out of work and facing the ominous task of finding employment in a cyber world and declining job market. Struggling to keep afloat, a long-time friend suggested she tap back into her creative side and pick up a pen and write (or Macbook and type as case may be). She credits the therapeutic effects of writing to getting her through this stressful time. Ginny writes both traditional poetry and free verse. She has been published in The River Muse, an on-line Art & Literary Journal. You may read more of her poetry on her website here, listen to her recite her poems here or connect with her Ginny on twitter.
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