This
poem’s story dates back to 1999, a pivotal point in my life…
That time was pivotal in terms of accepting
my life on larger scales and learning to cope with everything that had come
before and what I wanted my life to be moving ahead. It was a time of deep
self-reflection and rejection from many who I believed cared about me.
It was also a time of feeling the loss
of myself, slipping into unrealistic visions and expectations, forming them
into realities, suffering through disbelief and denial. When there was no one
to turn to, I turned to spirituality and faith for support, comfort and love.
I Was Not Alone
It
was spring
the
sun brightened
the
flowers on my bedspread
kept
watered by the heavy flow
of
tears that gushed from my eyes.
Tears
that would never end
from
a heartache so tangible
it
built a home inside me.
I prayed
it would release
its clutching
hold, freeing
a pain
that burrowed
deep
in my soul, consuming
my weak-beating
heart
polluting
my fragile veins.
My
woeful cries were not
heard
until a brilliant light
answered
in those darkest
desperate
hours,
come
to assuage my pain
apply
healing warmth
to this
lump of despair
growing
inside my chest
becoming
a cancer
on
my inner peace;
a
wound so deep
the scar
may never heal.
But
the light, it came
It
comforted
and
I knew I wasn’t alone.
Heather
Awad: I began writing poetry in my early twenties.
It started as a way to express deep emotional feelings I
could not release verbally. Very bound by my own voice, poetry became the
medium for me to speak. It remained my salvation in healing hurts, and in
learning to deal with strong emotions such as love and loss. Throughout the
last ten years, it has been an up and down process of writing consistently and
seriously, to letting it slip away in place of other more pressing demands. The
most prominent time when I returned to writing poetry, was this past January
2014 when I began using photographs of various kinds to incite myself and
awaken creativity, and I have been engaged non-stop since. I have taken
numerous online poetry and creative writing classes over the past year, and
continue to do so. Much of my poetry can be found on my Facebook page here.
~If you are interested in seeing your poetry appear in this blog, or submitting a poem by a woman that has inspired you, please click here for submission guidelines. I greatly look forward to hearing from you!~
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