I
wrote this after my miscarriage...
I am not sure at what time since time and
space became a big blur during those endlessly sad days. On the morning when
this piece was born I had dragged myself out of bed and sat in the sun in our
garden.
When You Think
by Ulli Stanway
When you think you won’t make it
You can’t get through all of this pain
When you have reached your inner darkness
When you think you want to sleep forever
When you are sure that you are so alone, so very alone
When you look up and the sky is clouded
When you feel this deep hurt, more than words could ever say
When you are in the winter of life
You look up and you slowly open your tired eyes
You see the first ray of sun
You notice that the plants that have recently died are now
growing again
You notice a little blossom – maybe purple
You start to see beauty
You will see a bird flying in the sky, effortless and joyous
You open up
You decide that you see beauty
In everything and everyone
You meet today
You notice that roses grow
all around you
The sun comes out
A flock of white birds flies over you
The sky open up
You notice the ever changing seasons
You notice the flow of the water whilst the sunlight covers it
in diamonds
You pick up a shell from an empty sandy beach
You hear and you feel
You smell and you sense
It is all here for you – for you and your healing
One thought at the time
One beautiful moment at the time
There is no rush, you have so much time
And slowly, ever so slowly you begin to awaken
Leaving your pain and grief behind
Be gentle with yourself and your tender heart
When you think you won’t make it
Life calls you back with gentle subtleness
When you think you won’t make it
Open your eyes; the world is waiting for you
Your love is needed
It is time to heal
And time to let go
Life is yours
Bath in its splendor and beauty
Life is here – for you
Always
Ulli Stanway: "I am a 41 year old rising poetess/writer/day dreamer and life lover. I live in Melbourne Australia with my beautiful husband. I love nature and I am a confessing tree hugger. I am working on my dream website called “Desire your own happiness”, which I hope will inspire other kindred souls to follow their own dreams and skip down a path they truly enjoy. I believe in becoming your authentic self, become who you are with all your quirkiness, weirdness and amazing talents. We don’t need to have countless copies of the same story being told. Be you, all that you are and that is perfectly enough. And you are so very needed. My mantra is taking your shoes off and run barefoot, in the rain whenever possible. Embrace everything you are. Here and now."
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Oh, I know this feeling from my own personal experience, dear Ulli. Thank you for taking such heartfelt pain and turning it into something beautiful in this poem. Yes, the world's beauty and splendor is indeed waiting for us! A valuable reminder. :) xoxo
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