I
wrote this after my miscarriage...
I am not sure at what time since time and
space became a big blur during those endlessly sad days. On the morning when
this piece was born I had dragged myself out of bed and sat in the sun in our
garden.
When You Think
by Ulli Stanway
When you think you wonāt make itāØ
You canāt get through all of this pain
āØWhen you have reached your inner darknessāØ
When you think you want to sleep foreverāØ
When you are sure that you are so alone, so very aloneāØ
When you look up and the sky is cloudedāØ
When you feel this deep hurt, more than words could ever say
āØWhen you are in the winter of life
You look up and you slowly open your tired eyesāØ
You see the first ray of sunāØ
You notice that the plants that have recently died are now
growing againāØ
You notice a little blossom ā maybe purpleāØ
You start to see beautyāØ
You will see a bird flying in the sky, effortless and joyousāØ
You open upāØ
You decide that you see beautyāØ
In everything and everyoneāØ
You meet todayāØ
You notice that roses growāØ all around you
The sun comes outāØ
A flock of white birds flies over youāØ
The sky open upāØ
You notice the ever changing seasonsāØ
āØYou notice the flow of the water whilst the sunlight covers it
in diamondsāØ
You pick up a shell from an empty sandy beach
āØYou hear and you feel
āØYou smell and you sense
It is all here for you ā for you and your healingāØ
One thought at the timeāØ
One beautiful moment at the timeāØ
There is no rush, you have so much time
āØAnd slowly, ever so slowly you begin to awaken
Leaving your pain and grief behind
āØBe gentle with yourself and your tender heart
āØWhen you think you wonāt make itāØ
Life calls you back with gentle subtlenessāØ
When you think you wonāt make itāØ
Open your eyes; the world is waiting for youāØ
Your love is neededāØ
It is time to healāØ
And time to let go
āØLife is yoursāØ
Bath in its splendor and beauty
āØLife is here ā for you
Always
Ulli Stanway: "I am a 41 year old rising poetess/writer/day dreamer and life lover. I live in Melbourne Australia with my beautiful husband. I love nature and I am a confessing tree hugger. I am working on my dream website called āDesire your own happinessā, which I hope will inspire other kindred souls to follow their own dreams and skip down a path they truly enjoy. I believe in becoming your authentic self, become who you are with all your quirkiness, weirdness and amazing talents. We donāt need to have countless copies of the same story being told. Be you, all that you are and that is perfectly enough. And you are so very needed. My mantra is taking your shoes off and run barefoot, in the rain whenever possible. Embrace everything you are. Here and now."
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Oh, I know this feeling from my own personal experience, dear Ulli. Thank you for taking such heartfelt pain and turning it into something beautiful in this poem. Yes, the world's beauty and splendor is indeed waiting for us! A valuable reminder. :) xoxo
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